Sneaky secrets in the footnotes
Oct. 2nd, 2025 05:55 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sorcyressI'm proud of myself that I have managed, every day this school year so far except two1, gotten out of bed on first alarm. No snooze, no going back, just up and doing things.
And while thinking about it this morning, I just said to myself something along these lines:
That feels important. Right up there with "half-assing is better than no-assing" or "no more zero days". It still counts. It still _gets done_.
Weather app says it was in the 40s outside when I woke up this morning. I'm gonna need to get the space heater out for my room soon, and then it's gonna run pretty much always when I'm awake and in my room, until the world gets warm enough for me to live in it again. I've had enough 5am wakeup days that I do know what it looks like to stumble down the stairs into the pitchblack.
Doing it on easy mode is still doing it.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: Two days, the two days immediately after finding out my mom has cancer. She saw her oncologist yesterday, they are tentatively hopeful that removal of the offending bits (we're gonna be hysterectobuddies!) is gonna solve the problem, not even chemo needed, it is 2025 and cancer is not a guaranteed death sentence, especially if you're rich and have access to good doctors. I haven't talked about it really yet because it's too big to look at, especially in the rest of this hell-fuck year. I don't super want to talk about it much more now, but I'm at least willing to hear responses. Woo.
And while thinking about it this morning, I just said to myself something along these lines:
Well yeah, but I've been doing it on easy mode [since the hard part of the year is the dark and endless cold].
Okay, but doing it on easy mode is still doing it.
That feels important. Right up there with "half-assing is better than no-assing" or "no more zero days". It still counts. It still _gets done_.
Weather app says it was in the 40s outside when I woke up this morning. I'm gonna need to get the space heater out for my room soon, and then it's gonna run pretty much always when I'm awake and in my room, until the world gets warm enough for me to live in it again. I've had enough 5am wakeup days that I do know what it looks like to stumble down the stairs into the pitchblack.
Doing it on easy mode is still doing it.
~Sor
MOOP!
1: Two days, the two days immediately after finding out my mom has cancer. She saw her oncologist yesterday, they are tentatively hopeful that removal of the offending bits (we're gonna be hysterectobuddies!) is gonna solve the problem, not even chemo needed, it is 2025 and cancer is not a guaranteed death sentence, especially if you're rich and have access to good doctors. I haven't talked about it really yet because it's too big to look at, especially in the rest of this hell-fuck year. I don't super want to talk about it much more now, but I'm at least willing to hear responses. Woo.
